Hello Lovelies, I am super excited to show you all my one of my favorite hobbies! I absolutely love planner supplies and always go crazy in Hobby Lobby or Micheals when it comes to all its bits and bobs. I’m very much an organized person when it comes to paying bills, lists otherwise I would lose my mind. I have learned that writing everything down helps with my anxiety and alleviates much of the stress of everyday life. Keep on reading to see how I organize my Erin Condren, and I’ve even been thinking of making this a series – of any updates I make within this planner. What do you guys think?
How crazy is it that we are upon a new year already?! I feel as though this year has flown by and I have done so much within this year and feel incredibly happy with everything that I was able to accomplish. I got my mental health under control finally, I have a job that pays well ( even though I am finding a new one), I travelled to NY and 7 countries in Europe and graduated from college with my Bachelors degree.
This year has been such a stressful, wonderful one and I have lost friends as well as gained some amazing people in my life who I absolutely adore, ( you know who you are)
I have few resolutions and goals that I would like to achieve this coming up year:
- SAVE, SAVE, SAVE – My love and I want to buy a house by this time next year (2019) so I need to get on a budget without compromising my makeup addiction haha
- Go back to school possibly – a bit iffy on this one but I may go back to be a teacher.
- Eat and drink more healthy – I’ve neglected my body this year and am ready to get back at it.
- Continue to be social- wine nights with the girls must be a continuous thing.
As far as resolutions and goals go I believe that may be it for me this coming year in 2018. I’ve learned less is more and these goals are all very realistic and achievable. Hopefully, I’ll get engaged and have my little home by the end of this time next year. My goals and wants have become very important to me seeing as I’m ready to get my adult life started at 23. I just know that 24 is gonna be my best year yet!
What are some of your goals for next year? comment below and let me know if you are determined to get those resolutions completed!
Hope you all have a wonderful New Years!
It’s that time of the month again! I received my Ipsy bag for the month of December has arrived and I absolutely love my bag this month, time and time again Ipsy never fails me. I love getting my bags every month since it feels like a Christmas present every month. If you have someone in your life that loves trying new products I would definitely suggest purchasing a yearly plan for them! Below are the contents that I received in my bag this month, Let me know if we received the same items or if you had different items.
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This post has been a long one coming, It’s incredibly difficult to finally put it out in the open but those who know me might be shocked that I’ve been dealing with anxiety for as long as I have. This is a long post, but if you read it in its entirety it would mean the world to me.
Anxiety is something that people have this weird stigma against and honestly that stigma was very prominent in my life. Unfortunately, I thought that having anxiety meant that there was something wrong with me and that it wasn’t okay to not be okay. It absolutely is. As I’ve become more comfortable with myself and my mental health, I’ve finally come to terms with talking to a licensed professional and start taking medication for my anxiety.
Due to the stigma on mental health only 36.9% of those suffering receive treatment for their anxiety. Anxiety disorders are the most common mental illness in the U.S., affecting 40 million adults in the United States age 18 and older, or 18.1% of the population every year. (this statistical data was found on Anxiety and Depression Association of America).
I honestly can say that I have struggled with Anxiety and Depression for the vast majority of my life starting when I was about 10 years old and reached its peak when I was 23 ( my age now) and I had never been on medication up until now which was genuinely because I was scared to be on a medication for the rest of my life and didn’t want to be dependent on one.
Anxiety can definitely be genetic and I have anxiety and depression in my family so It’s no surprise that it hit me the older I got. I won’t go too in depth about my family history with both of these mental health issues since this post is about me and not my family. After talking to my doctor she explained that it was more than likely a genetic trait after letting her know about my family medical history.
The 4 years I was in college I completely realized that I was a type A personality and that my anxiety was worsening no matter how I tried to mask it, more so the last two years have been extremely difficult for me. I would cry and feel a bit lost almost daily to the point where I didn’t want to be around or near anyone and at that point when I was 20-21 I felt completely alone. I was constantly worried about deadlines and upset because I was constantly in a state of wanting things to be completely organized (If you had seen my school notes, you would know what I mean)
I would be extremely anxious and those of you who suffer with anxiety know that it is extremely difficult to do anything without a voice in the back of your head saying “no you can’t” or “what are other people going to think”. There is no real rime or reason it just happens.
By the time I hit my age of 23 years old I hit a nervous breaking point because the real world had honestly hit me hard after I graduated this past May. I managed to get a job ( that was not in my field) and making more money than I have ever made from a job and working full time— by all means it is great, but I felt very lost and felt like I wasn’t doing enough for someone my age. I had an emotional breaking point due to the stress of having a brand new job and pressure to do well and I honestly couldn’t function and my body was hating me for it. I could not eat because my stomach was upset all the time and I felt so uncomfortable with everything, and my anxiousness was really bad where I couldn’t focus on anything. Thankfully with the help of my family and my lovely boyfriend I decided to get help from a professional.
Marc ( my lovely boyfriend ) has been there for me through thick and thin and he has seen my have many panic attacks due to my anxiety in the 2 and 1/2 years together. I can’t even begin to tell you how horrible and emotional the last three years have been nor can I tell you what it feels like to be stressed to the point of not being able to breathe.
After seeing my doctor, I was prescribed Sertraline aka. Zoloft and it has been working wonderfully for me and has me calmer than ever without compromising my own personality traits which is what I wanted. I didn’t want to feel like a zombie or not be able to take myself off of it when I am ready. It was one of my concerns but honestly this medicine has changed my level of focus and it makes like easier to really go on with my day.
With all this being said, I am incredibly happy that I am starting to feel comfortable in social situations and comfortable with my own mind. I want to make it known that it IS okay to not be okay, nothing is wrong with you if you have that constant nagging feeling and feeling like things are so more than what other people think. Being emotional is okay, and while some loved ones may not understand – it doesn’t diminish how they love you. It is okay to seek help, it’s okay to lean on your friends and family- they will not be burdened by your feelings. You are wonderful if you read all of this, Anxiety is a journey and not something that will ever completely go away but it a healing journey. Which is exactly what I am doing right now. Healing.
It is okay, to not be okay. You are so much stronger than you think.